Last night, I laid in bed with Bentley, sharing a pillow and tickling his tummy for a few minutes to help soothe him before he fell asleep. He rubbed his blankie against his face for a second and then turned and stretched it so it reached over both of our heads in a little blankie cave. He whispered to me "I love you so much sweetie." It felt like heaven.
3 years ago, my doctor placed a brand new infant in my arms. He was crying and very messy, and he was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. And he was mine--my very own child to love and raise. I fell instantly in love with that tiny helpless baby and immediately knew that he had filled my heart with an immeasurable amount of love--the kind of love that only a mother can feel. 1 year ago, I met my baby girl and felt the same natural, immediate and overpowering surge of love for her. It hasn't diminished nor do I think it ever will for either of my sweet children.
So, to Bentley and Caroline, thank you. Thank you for making me a mommy. It is the most fulfilling role I have ever had and I know you are helping me reach my divine potential. Thank you for being patient with me when I am tired and cranky. Thank you for indulging me on trips to the mall and Target and TJ Maxx. Thank you for all the hugs you give me with your warm little bodies. Thank you for teaching me about love and sacrifice and innocence and joy. We have quite the journey ahead of us and I will make many mistakes. I have already made countless ones. You belong to me and I belong to you, forever. If you only remember one thing your mommy has taught you, whether you're 2 or 12 or 20 or 50, please, please let it simply be this--"I love you so much sweetie."
Thank you to my own, special mother who has always supported, nurtured and taken care of me and continues to do so. Thank you to my mother-in-law, Ruth Ann, for raising a wonderful family and adopting me into it so easily and lovingly. Thank you to my sisters and sisters-in-law--whether you are mothers or not, you are loving, kind, affectionate mothers to my children who are so lucky to have you in their lives. I am lucky to have you in my life. Happy Mother's Day!
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Let me see if I can write through the tears!!! So beautifully written. You are a great mother and I appreciate how you nurture me and my children. And thank you for allowing me to witness that most perfect moment as Bentley entered this world and you became a mother. I love you and hope your Mother's Day is wonderful!
I am crying too! What a wonderful post. I can hardly wait until some little spirits will come into my life and help me reach my divine potential! Love you and thanks for being such a great example to me.
It has been, and continues to be, a joy to be your mother, Carrie. I love watching you love your own babies. Thanks, too, for letting me be there for the sacred and beautiful moments of Bentley's and Caroline's births. I do love your children, and I love you and Joseph. Happy Mother's Day, sweetie!
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